This site has been a blessing and I have to ask for prayer support. I also pray for everyone in the Divorce World. My divorce was final Feb.10, she began being unfaithful in Sept., was living with this man before Christmas, took my 2 beautiful boys 2 and 6 from me on that special day to spend it with him. I am dying inside. I have tried so hard to give it to God but I feel like I am losing this battle to keep my heart and mind sound for my boys. I am hurting so bad. This site has given me so much hope but daily I lose sight and it is everything I can do to get back to praising God for what I do have. I want my family back, is it really God’s plan for my boys to grow up like this? She is in Mexico this whole week with him, and I am struggling with wanting to hurt someone–him! I feel for everyone in this type of situation, I know Jesus, I know what he wants of me, but I feel I am going to lose this battle with Satan. Jason, your insight has been awesome but I am losing it. How do I forgive with so much anger inside? I have been betrayed by my best friend…
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Manuel, you are in my prayers and I do understand what you are going through. To this day I still have bad days and don’t praise God for what He has given me. I would pray long and hard to have my family restored but God doesn’t force people to do things and unfortunately there will be some scaring on yourself and children. But with God’s help you can bring your kids through this! They need you desparately. Keep your witts and keep the faith. I wish I could tell you that it is going to be easy but it isn’t. It is hard but you must remember that God is working here, for certain in you. Maybe your ex, it just depends where her heart is and it sounds like it is in the world. She will suffer consequences.
There are still times I feel hate for my ex. It is when I am not with our daughter. I hate not being with her and I blame my ex wife and it makes me HATE. So have I forgiven her? I would say yes but I don’t always like the situation but then again I am sure someone might disagree.
Let the anger run its course but keep it under control and remember you, me, our ex’s are sinners and we must accept that, forgive, and let them go.
The anger will go in time just don’t let the bitterness get a foothold or satan will really start to screw you up.
Get prayer from church and talk about it to people who will listen. It works…. There were times I wanted to physically harm almost every man I saw because he could of been the one. I know the anger!
I know when you think about your boys they bring joy to your heart. That is one way to get past the anger. Think of those unforgettable moments and make new ones. I could go on and on. Just hang in there brother. You are going to encounter good and bad but know this! Keep the course and you will come out ahead with God one side and your boys at the other and the warm sun shining on your face. Peace and happiness is out there.