My husband of 5 years and I have been separated for two months now. He is instant on getting a divorce.
After surfacing rumors most proven to be fact, including adultery; I’m no longer certain what I want. I know that regardless to fact or fiction I want to proceed in what ever manner that is right by God. I know that despite all of this I do not want a divorce and this will be against my will.
We have two little girls and this is so painful for them as well (of course). My oldest daughter, 7, is my step daughter so I now rarely see her. My youngest, 4, prays every night that God will bring us back together.
I trust in God. I know that however this ends that it will all be for the best. I am putting all of my faith in God. But this is still so painful. I am constantly confused, thought driven, depressed, heart broken… it is agonizing.
It’s not all bad. Through this I have been refined and grown in Christ. I thank God for this mountain and am so anxious to publicly proclaim my victory in God’s precious name by testimony. I have not only a loving family but a loving in-law family who love, support and encourage me. I am truly blessed and thankful.
Please pray for God’s guidance, His truth, that He gives me patience and His wisdom. Pray that I can ignore the desires of my heart and only follow God with my actions, thoughts and words. Pray for my daughters, that this does not affect them spiritually. Pray for my husband that he is happy and truly follows God. All I want for all of us is to be servants of God.
As John Waller perfectly words in his “While I’m waiting” song;
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
