I need prayer for finding a job that will support myself once the divorce is final that will be within my physical limitations, that my husband will seek the Lord and stop blaming me for his unhappiness, to be able to let go and let God in regards to the emotional, mental and verbal attacks from my husband during the divorce proceedings, to be able to heal emotionally so that God will bring into my life the family that I have desired since childhood, to be able to stop crying over a love that I probably never really had from the beginning, to allow the hope I had for my marriage to be taken from me until the right man is placed in my life, to continue to follow God’s leading and not play the unfair worldly game of divorce as my husband has chosen to play, that my fear of him harming me will be taken from me by God’s peace and comfort, to believe once again in marriage, love, grace, forgiveness and mercy. I ask for prayer to continue to cover me in my search for myself through this process and not dwell on what I did or didn’t do, could or couldn’t do, should or should have done, and to seek the joy that I know is there within me and focus on the happiness that is to come. Thank you… this hurts a lot and my heart is fractured so terribly by the insensitivity of the one person that vowed to love me forever. It has shaken my trust of men to the core and I hate this feeling to be honest, because I know deep down it’s a lie from satan, but it still hurts.
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Please remember that God gave your husband free will and you are not responsible for his actions, although you can continue to pray for him. All of your beliefs and dreams about marriage are still there, perhaps buried inside you for now. God knows the longing of your heart and has great plans for you, probably marriage to a wonderful man who will love you in a proper way. He wants a God-centered marriage for you, something it doesn’t sound like you had. I’m so sorry you were betrayed, just as Jesus was betrayed. You didn’t deserve that and God weeps for you. You are not the one who gave up on your marriage and you musn’t give up on your future, either. And…good luck with the job search. I will pray for you!
Tamra, My heart aches as I read your request. It is so similiar to what I am going through and I know the pain and betrayal you feel. I have found that it helps me to turn my thoughts over to God and not allow myself to dwell on all the horrible things my husband said to me and the blame he placed on me for HIS decisions! God will get you through this, but you must take captive your thoughts and not let the emotional abuse of your husband reign in them! I will pray for you my dear friend. Divorce is horrible! God bless you and heal your wounded heart! “The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Ps. 34:18 Check out the book “Divorce Care- hope, help and healing during and after your divorce” It is a daily devotional and it is awesome! I think it is available on Amazon.com
Blessings, Jean