Submitted by Scott
I saw my son (who is now ten) over Christmas for the third time in his life. Since they live out of state, and the fact that I have not had a job for almost two years (no unemployment…(long story) made things very complicated when talking about anything. The visit was very tense to say the least… a lot of things were said that were troubling which I will not disclose out of respect for my son (but he no doubt knows a lot more than she told me…) Since they left, I’ve been dealing with depression, which was bad to begin with but has gotten worse. I know God is working in my life, but it’s hard to dealing with the past, and not seeing a clear direction for the future…loneliness is a big problem right now but I’m not emotoinally healthy enough (even now) to even consider pursuing a relationship and wounding someone else, so the isolation I feel is even more intense…I sometimes think I’ll never find someone to share my life with… that’s hard to think about and give thanks for.