Submitted by K
You know the expression, “Cheaters never win”, well, I’m here to say that isn’t true at least in my case.
My ex husband has our boys because I am too ill to care for them alone. He has a new marriage whereas no one would want me once they began to see all of my shortcomings. He publishes christian books and albums; has an outgoing personality; handsome and has 3 incomes at his disposal including mine for child support. All I do is struggle to stay as healthy as possible for my kids and now I have no job and no medical insurance and no one to love me. I don’t believe in “happiness” anymore. That was before my christian husband who said he cherished me commited adultery with several women with no repentance. I did the best that I could and my best wasn’t good enough. He still walked out the door.
Five years later I still cannot shake this. Every weekend I see him and am reminded of my failure to satisfy. I found out this week that he has written a book/blog about our marriage from his distorted point of view. I am so ashamed and angered of how he views me and the love I gave only to him as a virgin wife.
People always say that God can do anything or He can turn any situation around. I don’t believe that. There is no turning this situation around. It is what we’ve made it. I just find it ironic that the one who broke covenant with me and God is the one prospering in every way.
He said the Lord was giving him another woman to marry. What was I?
The Lord says vengeance is His and He’ll repay. But there is no vengeance to repay against another christian. How do I win?
I have never had other men in my life to soften the blow of divorce. I’ve taken the pain head on and alone except for God. Sometimes in life, Cheaters do win.