Am I a failure?
Personally, this is one of the worst questions I had to deal with. With all the mistakes that I had made in my life now I was a failure at marriage. I just could not handle the fact that I had let my spouse down, I let my family down, I let myself down, I let my daughter down, and worst of all I let God down.Much of my life I struggled with guilt and failure, outwardly I seemed to do all right. I have a good job, a roof over my head, good food to eat, my health is good, I have overcome many obstacles and addictions in my life yet I still viewed myself as a failure. This one just seemed to be the ultimate one, I let down the woman that was supposed to be the one till the end. Then I remembered that I was not the one that filed for divorce. I was not the one that had an affair. I was not the one that gave up.
Sure I had my share of mistakes but that is in my nature. If there is any one truth, that is, I was born to screw up! The more I recognized that I was being attacked by the enemy I was able to confront the failure issue. Yes, I failed but I picked myself up and learned from those failures, without failure you can’t have victory. During this time I was able to come to a place of brokenness before the Lord. I was able to pour out my heart to Him and let Him heal me and restore me. God reminded me that I am a child of His and I share in His glory and victory.
Don’t dwell on your mistakes, acknowledge them and give them over to the Lord. Let Him mold you and change your heart. God does not see me as a failure, God loves me and sees me as His child.
Isaiah 64:8
Yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.
- Why did this happen?
- What do I do now?
- When will I stop hurting so badly?
- Have the past few years been a waste of time?
- Am I a failure?
- What do I do to keep this from happening again?