Have the Past Few Years Been a Waste of Time

“What a Waste of Time?” How could I of wasted the past few years with “this woman?”

When it comes down to the cold hard truth I have to admit that I am the one that made the decision to marry her, no one forced me and yes I ignored many signals that told me to RUN! If I am to look at the past few years as wasted time then I need to ignore the fact that I have a beautiful daughter that I love with all my heart. That in itself tells me the years were not wasted. This kid was the best thing that happened to me, I only hope that I don’t let her down, too much. I have also been able to learn a lot about myself and others during this time. I never knew marriage could be so difficult. I am no longer delusional to the “Fairy Tale” marriage.

Often times we need to make mistakes in order to grow. Well I made my share of mistakes so instead of feeling like the past few years have been wasted I choose to look at it as opportunity, opportunity to grow and be more of that man that God sees me to be. And I pray that I never have to go through it again! I can look back on much of my life and see that I wasted time but it is those times that made me who I am today, whether that be good or bad. Who is to say that if I were able to go back and do it all over again would I be a better man? Would I have come to a place of accepting the Lord as my Savior? Honestly, I don’t know and I don’t want to take that chance.