Christian
Divorce Recovery
There is a Higher Purpose
Often I get it stuck in my head that I am destined to be miserable. I spent years in an unhealthy marriage only to see it end in divorce after trying to do everything in my power to save it. When the divorce was finalized I was confused and angry with God for letting this happen. I could not comprehend that He would allow my wife to proceed with what she was doing. To make matters worse she continued to make bad decision after bad decision and was putting our daughter in situations that were not ideal for a child her age.Unfortunately I had no legal action and my concerns fell on deaf ears. Again I find myself completely powerless and miserable. I begin to get angry with God again and even start to doubt His presence in my life. All I can think is Why God? Why?
Even though my motives were right and I sincerely cared about my marriage and daughter it dawned on me that I was being selfish. I was making everything about me. I came to believe that there had to be a higher purpose. There had to be a reason why these things were happening to me and not only me but also the others involved in my life. At some point there had to be some glory come out of all that I have been enduring the past few years, and even continue to endure.
I had to come to realize that the world does not revolve around me. That people get hurt and people make poor decisions, it is what we call life. Sometimes life has some unpleasant and hard lessons associated with it. There has to be a higher purpose to everything that is going on in my life. Even if I don’t know why, there is much more to it. I am uncertain that even if I did know why that it would make a difference. I would probably disagree with the reasons anyway. However, knowing that there is a higher purpose I am able to find a glimmer of hope and in time maybe I will see the glory that goes with it.