One major obstacle I had to overcome after the divorce was the uncanny ability to see things that I didn’t want to see, things that would tend to bring me down rather than lift me up.
For example; sitting in church minding my own business I just happen to notice the couple up front snuggling next to one another, looking at each other lovingly, and enjoying the service. Or being at the park with my daughter and I notice the families enjoying the day together. Or as I am driving home I pass a nice house with people my age standing in front of it, and it must have cost $500,000.
Damn it! This was supposed to be my life… I had the wife and child, and we were well on our way to having a good middle-class life. After my wife left, I felt like I lost everything. Things simply weren’t happening the way I had planned, and for some reason, it was all I could see. I was coveting in a major way and boy was I jealous.
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