We all want to achieve a level of happiness and success where we aren’t dependent on anyone or anything, but unfortunately, that is always possible. It seems as life throws a couple of curve balls our way we begin to tighten our grip on the things we fear losing the most. The tighter you squeeze, the faster it slips between your fingers, and there is nothing you can do to stop it.
As I look back on a few hurdles in my life, I see where things played out exactly like this. The harder I tried to hold on to marriage, my wife no longer wanted, the worse it got. Until finally during a counseling session, it was suggested to me to let her go. Then it was money; I wanted more of it to provide a better life for my daughter, but the more frugal I became it seemed there was always something to hit me in the pocketbook; high gas prices, car repair, medical bill, etc. I stopped giving to church and charity to try and get where I wanted to be, however, that place never came. Then I decided to look for a new relationship and everywhere I went I had that one thought (goal) to meet someone. This became quite frustrating as it seemed nearly impossible to find the happiness I craved. Forcing it or being too needy only made things worse. Everyone told me that I would find love when I wasn’t looking for it… bleh!
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