When will I stop hurting?
I firmly believe that everything must happen for a reason. I am to
suffer so much then there darn well better be something good to come out
of it. I really did not start hurting until I was able to get beyond the
denial and anger. Once I was able to see the reality of the situation I
was able to give my anger to God.
BAM! I was hit with the reality of things and I don’t know if I ever
experienced the kind of hurt that I did that day. I really can’t put a
time on how long I hurt. It seemed like forever, everyday I hoped and
hoped only to be disappointed. The days seemed to drag on and on
bringing along with it the hurt.
It has been over a year now and there are times I still hurt but I have
joy and peace. I have a relationship with God and my daughter. It took
time but the hurt did pass and I was able to move on with my life.
Reach out to God, He may not take away your hurt but He will get you
through it and you will be a better person when you come out the other
side. Growth is often uncomfortable, rest assured that God is doing good
things in your life and look for the blessings everyday.
One last comment: try to minimize the pity parties, I tried to have one
as often as I could but luckily not many people came and eventually it
was just me. Feeling sorry for yourself isn’t going to make things
better, for me it took my eyes of God but every so often it was a good
excuse to eat a half gallon of ice cream, I am paying for that too.
Matthew 5:4
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
- Why did this happen?
- What do I do now?
- When will I stop hurting so badly?
- Have the past few years been a waste of time?
- Am I a failure?
- What do I do to keep this from happening again?